New Year, New Beginnings

As the third day of the 2008th year since the birth of Christ draws to a close, I find myself reflecting on a lot of things and intently looking at where I am now and where I want to be.

I have begun a new job doing work that isn't entirely exciting, but it utilizes my talents--both with technology, and with people. I'm living away from home with two people that both manage to always make me feel better, even at my lowest points, albeit each in their own very unique ways. I have a mother who literally does everything she can for me, and while she is off-base in some (okay, a lot of) regards, she truly loves me unconditionally. I'm preparing to begin my fourth semester at Penn State Harrisburg with a new batch of classes and a new world of drama, to be sure! I hope for good things from the SGA this semester, but I know they can't happen unless our current leaders cut the strings being pulled from the shadows. I'm now on the Executive Committee for my fraternity, and I'm eager to prove myself as a strong leader beyond what I've already done in the past year.

Of course, I can't ignore the things that bring me down. Even with a new job, rent is still almost $400/month on top of a phone bill, legal fines, not to mention the everyday cost of living. Thank God I like ramen! I'm still coping with a lot of changes in my personal life, both with my peers and with myself. My New Years resolution this year is the same as last year, but I intend to keep it this year, and this time it will be without consequence.

So back to my initial statement; I've just said where I am, but where do I want to be? Well, a few poor choices on my part last August have taken away something I truly love, yet that something isn't as far removed as I had been led to believe. Still, I wish I had acted more carefully. Or perhaps it's just that, and I should have never stopped acting. Either way, I cannot change the past, only learn from it and prevent myself from repeating my mistakes.

I'm not quite where I want to be in every regard, but I'm getting there, and be it resolved, I will arrive there soon. This semester holds a lot of promise, I think. I'm ready, for the good and the bad. Bring it, '08.

I'm a Mutt

So I saw my dad this evening... And as a result, none of my other plans happened. Without going into detail over that (and getting to the point of this post's title), I discussed my heritage with my dad and here is the updated list of everything I am:

German, Dutch, French (Bourgogne), Italian, Swedish, Iroquois, and Cherokee.

Me = The Seven Deadly something-or-others...

Happy Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving (or "turkey day," as some prefer) has come again, and is almost over. I returned to Perry County yesterday to spend the holiday with my mom and kitty. My sister and her boyfriend joined us for dinner, which was quite tasty and filling.

I look forward to returning to Middletown, but I have a few days yet to hold out... Don't get me wrong, I love my family, but being back here really doesn't do it for me. For one thing, Mom works half the day (including holidays), so I'm alone half the time, and even when she is here, she usually sits and watches her Christian programming on TV. When we do converse, it's a safe bet that she'll make some sort of offensive comment, either (unbeknownst to her) about me or about someone I care about. Then I get cranky, and she can only wonder why, as I can never express my ill feelings towards her views without seriously upsetting her.

I live in the boondocks town of Ickesburg, so all of my high school friends are kinda far, at least 15 miles away. I find myself missing my close friends back at college, and my desire to return home grows even stronger. At least I can talk to them... I tend to censor everything I say around my mom and sister, for fear that they will flip out and shift into über-Christian mode. I'm Christian (and quite conservative in a number of ways), but they are downright close-minded, especially Mom.

The numerous comments about how my friends are "corrupting" me make me kinda cranky, too. No, Mom, they are not corrupting me. I am growing into a more social, extroverted individual who is willing to try new things instead of sticking with the belief that I will burn for eternity for violating what is written in the Bible. Whoops, I wear blended fabrics, guess I'm already screwed!

Okay, enough about why I don't want to be here. On to my plans for tomorrow. My friend Brian is having a "Black Friday Party" tomorrow night, which will provide me with the opportunity to catch up with a lot of people I have not seen in a while. I'm also gonna visit my dad tomorrow afternoon... Heh, that's a rant for another day! I'm going to go back to Middletizzy tomorrow night to help Leemur trim the tree, then I'll be back in PeCo to spend the rest of the weekend with Mom.

I think that will suffice for my first entry. I promise, not all of them will be rants!